Basking in the thrill of being cancer free for a whole six weeks now, I continue to be tired. I hate tired. It sounds like whining...it sounds weak. People give you blank looks when you say, "I'm tired." And yet, most days I could, and sometimes do, climb in my bed about 6 PM for a nap or at least some vegitating.
It all feels like a never-ending circle since last summer...major cancer surgery is sure to make you exhausted. Your body has to recover. It never really did as two weeks post-surgery, I'm on this amazingly horrible low-iodine diet in preparation for thyroid cancer treatment and taken off of all thyroid meds. Then treatment....then continued recovery and adjusting thyroid meds. A mere three months later, more cancer...more surgery...more tired.
But now, I am through with cancer (rockin' the positive attitude here), and the tiredness lingers. I mentioned this to my family doc on a routine visit lately, and she did some blood work (everyone wants my blood these days...) to discover that I have a Vitamin D deficiency. A friend told me how her lack of Vit. D solved her energy problem so I thought, "Ah ha! There it is...mystery solved."
Six weeks after starting special Vitamin D supplements, I'm still tired. Like some days wanting to go to bed shortly after getting out of bed tired. Other days, it catches up to me by the end of the day.
I should get out and walk, you know, exercise...but I'm truly too tired. I'm afraid I would have to call Mackenzie or Chris to come pick me up as I'm curled around a stop sign on Lawyers Road (Vienna reference...sorry non-Vienna folks).
So I guess I'll blame my lack-o-thyroid just because blaming it on something makes me feel better. But really, I just want it to stop. I don't want to be "too tired" and miss Morgan scoring a goal or miss a performance (vocal, dance, or otherwise) of Mackenzie's.
My endo, whom I really like, is actually dropping my thyroid medication in the direction that would make me more tired because my #s aren't right. (Program note: When they surgically remove your thyroid, you are forever on daily medication to replace what your thyroid does, which is maintain energy and metabolism. It's a constant battle to get these medication levels right.)
So it's multiple choice: lazy, exhausted, or thyroid...and I don't even know the correct answer.