Thursday, December 31, 2009

Letting go of 2009

Wow, how can that be, the last day of the decade? On Twitter today, there was this trending topic "#10yearsago" that really got me to thinking....Here was my tweet about that:

#10yearsago my kids were in preschool & elementary school. Now....teenagers! Oh yeah, and I didn't have cancer then either. That came along in 2008.

However, my life has evolved so much more than that in the last 10 years. Biggest events in my small world: Great decision to marry Chris in 2004, Pepa passed away in 2005, and thyroid cancer in 2008/2009. The girls have grown into amazing kids....plus, added Christian by marrying Chris. And so much more that I'm sure I will think immediately after posting this, "Dang! I forgot about __________!"

I'm really looking forward to this new year....a new beginning, a new decade. I've got some personal goals/resolutions to tackle that I'm actually pretty psyched about. Plus, I am thrilled to see the kids grow into adults....hmmm, that didn't sound so good. I'm excited to see them become their adult selves NOT to get them out of the house!

And...I think I'm ready to move on from my thyroid cancer diagnosis. I'm going to let go of it as I let go of 2009. I haven't been ready to yet strangely...there's been alot of "what if?" that I believe I have held onto WAY too long. It's been a hard road, and I've been in a bit of a funk about it for a while. It's something I'll always be aware of as I take my thyroid replacement pill everyday and look at that scar on my neck. I will still be a part of and support the thyroid community as frankly, I hope to help some folks as others have helped me. It's just time for me mentally to move on and accept this new me. And like this new me, thyroid cancer survivor and all.

So....here's to 2010! Let's not sit back and let it happen. Let's make it happen. :)

1 comment:

  1. I understand the letting cancer go bit. I am there with Ian's. Diagnosis was back in July of 2005. He will see the doctor on Jan. 8 and then not again until next January. That is HUGE leap for us. Am I ready? I don't know. But if the doctor's say that is they way it is then I need to let it go and let God. Lot's of prayers for a cancer free forever.

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