Monday, December 29, 2008

Biopsy scheduled - January 5th

My biopsy is scheduled one week from today. Surprisingly, especially after the "we'll call you in 5-7 days" talk, the office called Christmas Eve to schedule it. I will do this thing on Monday, January 5th at 9:15 AM.

Every day that it gets closer, I get the "ready for it" and "are you kidding me?" feelings at the same time. Seems familiar from this summer. Alot is riding on this biopsy for me as you can imagine, and my gut tells me to just get ready as it doesn't look good. However, as I have blogged about before, I know the deal, know the doctors involved, etc. Those of you who know me, know that is good. It's helps me to have as much information as possible, as it does most of us. If it is good news, I will be pleasantly surprised.

I'm not feeling well at all today. My "cancer cough," as I affectionately (NOT!) called it back in August-September, is back. I honestly think it is just a "cold cough" but the last time I had it, it was associated with the surgery back this summer. In addition to the cancer cough, I have a head/chest full of crap, and, in general, just feel gross. Oh, and this is my first day back working....fun when you feel like I do! I will survive...handled some cancer this year, surely I can handle a cold.

Great quote from my Facebook page from dear cousin Holly:

Hope you guys had a good Christmas. Ours pretty much sucked :) but I feel like it was a "growth opportunity." I thought about you as I was having a nervous breakdown and was like, "Holly, get yourself together! Charlcie has cancer and she's not having a nervous breakdown!"

Although I have not officially had a nervous breakdown, there have been some dark days, Holly! Move forward each day, move forward. Today's not a great day, but I will survive (cue Gloria Gaynor music....gotta check out the great roller skater in sparkly red pants in the video).

3 comments:

  1. I Will Survive is a perfect song. I wish you strength in this difficult time. A good friend has this and has been trudging thru with good success.
    I'll be thinking of you!

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  2. Hey there, checking in with some early week support. Sorry about all this! Next, we need to find a song whose chorus goes "I will kick ass!" Which you will!

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  3. I know you probably wish it would hurry up and get here and be over already, dammit. Hang in there...

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